Online Addict

Without a computer, I would have died. But now with a computer, why do I still feel like I'm dying?

I think I'm fast becoming an online addict. Time simply whiz by when I'm online. And then before I know it, they day is gone, I've missed my lunch AND breakfast.

Now I see the perils of the WWW. It's addictive. It sucks your soul. It drains you of energy. It's a curse!

Then again, it could be up to me to change things for the better. Let's talk about time management. I believe I have atrocious time management skills. But how you gonna define GOOD time management skills then?

I suppose my way of doing things is more intuitive, rather than systematic. I'm not too sure if it's a good or bad thing. Because intuitive behaviour sometimes hinge on being impulsive too. And some people think that my way of doing things is incompetent. Well, it has been said that one of the habits of incompetent people is intuitive/impulsive behaviour.

Well, take that with a pinch of salt, eh. I definitely would not see myself as incompetent. Maybe I seek the easy way out many a time. Maybe I don't take things too seriously. Maybe I'm kinda inefficient. Maybe...

A hell lot of maybes. I hate it when I'm at this kind of dilemma. Trying to figure things out, yet there are like a gazillion things jumping into your face. Hairianto says it's yet another passing phase.

But seriously, how many of such phases are there? This game of life thing is getting really dreary. It's like constant internal battle. You say one thing, the mind says another, the heart still got cheek to chip it something, and it all becomes a mess. Tangled in a web of reason; the more you struggle, the more tangled you get.

F*** school.