New Year, New Fears

I don't know how and why, but the first few days of 2006 have been really creepy. Not that smooth sailing and I'm feeling a little jumpy. Maybe even freaked out. I feel bad.

What a bad start. And my cousin got booted out of Campus Superstar. It's just the first round! Anyways, to heck with it. I shan't talk about Campus Superstar 'cos it's not worth the time and effort. Then I got booted out of my group for a module's presentation. Can you believe how tough things are going? My gosh! If this goes on I think I'm gonna pass out.

I'm so bugged down by school too. More specifically, it's the freakin' course that's bugging me like hell. I'm that close to giving up. Oh wait, I'm not even sure if I had taken it up in the first place. It's all so weird. And then there's all that crap that people are telling me. I think I'm kinda crumbling under all that pressure. It's so unlike me, but hey, it's the new year. Strange things happen.

Back to me getting booted out of my group. Seriously, I hadn't officially joined the group. So it doesn't really affect me that much. Though when the news first broke, I wanted to wail like a baby. Then I just thought it wasn't that worth it and I was back and alive in around 10 minutes or so. Okay, so the thing now is, I'm not gonna get a grade for that presentation. Which also means I can kiss passing that module goodbye. There's always next time, so whatever. To hell with it.

Then I thought to myself, "Do I even work well with others?"

And with almost absolute certainty, I replied, "No."

So let's conclude that I do not work well with other people. And then it all boils down to me again. I HATE TO BE TIED DOWN BECAUSE I LOVE FREEDOM.

In this case, group work crosses that comfort zone of mine. This makes me really uncomfortable. And I suppose it's the end of me since I can't work with others? Actually I don't think it's that serious. But let's just keeps things to the extremes. For contrast and oomph. (Haha!...)

This little 'problem' here has in fact been loitering around in my head. It's just that I haven't been paying much attention to it. I don't think my life is over because to be really concise, I do not work well with STRANGERS. And it doesn't help that STRANGERS come in the form of 2 smart-alecky, rich and stuck-up kids, as in the case of the group I got booted out from.

I knew it was suicide when I decided to join the "Arrogant Duo" in that elective module (meaning these people aren't from my course). But hell, I just wanted to know how stuck-up people function. Oh, when I say stuck-up, I mean REALLY stuck-up, arrogant, snobbish, speaks-with-"posh"-accent, show-offy, and well, RICH. Being rich and snobbish doesn't go together. You might as well be a freak.

So Arrogant Duo kicked me outta their group and I'm sure to fail my elective module, which in general, "no one fails their elective modules". F- that, please. Thank you.

By the way, Arrogant Duo is made up of one ugly guy and an even uglier girl. Hope your lunch digested well.

It's really no time to feel sad for myself, 'cos I believe that's the way I am. To put it very bluntly, I bum around like a sloth, except that I'm much cuter. Woohoo!~ Take it or leave it.

For the New Year: I DO NOT WORK WELL WITH STRANGERS.