Can You Feel It?

Yesterday we met Kelvin, who was basically one of those Photoshop wizards. Haven't seen any of his work, but by the looks of it, he seems to know his stuff well.

It was a night class from 7.00PM to 10.00PM. I find it rather thrilling to have night classes. Plus the campus still looks fantastic at night.

Kelvin was going through all the Photoshop basics, which basically left me very bored. Then I felt a headache coming up. I realised that the ceiling of the teaching pod(as opposed to classroom) was studded shamelessly with spotlights which suddenly appeared to be too glaring for comfort.

During the start of the class, he asked for us to do yet another introduction of ourselves. Well, his suggestion wasn't too well received in general. But for me, I had no problem with self-introductions. In fact, I find it cool that we had to self intro a little bit.

He asked for us to include why we wanted to be in Communication Design in our intros.

Most said, "'Cos I'm into graphics..." while giving the very pai seh look.

Pai seh for what? I have no idea. I thought I'd meet people who were at least more passionate about visual communication, graphic design, etc. Apparently I've to meet more people.

Some said that they were into Advertising Design. Fine, I have no problem with that.

But what I find truly disturbing is when someone said, "I chose this course because I don't like all the other courses."

I felt so disturbed, disgusted and INSULTED.

For me, I said, "...I'm more inclined to do design for print because I NEED TO FEEL MY DESIGN."

Talk about alienation, this was it. Kelvin looked at me, turned to the class and asked, "Do you all know what he's talking about when he says he need to feel the design?"

I looked at the class, instantly got alienated and blur looks. My heart literally skipped a beat. It's awkward silence again. I always get awkward silence! It's so unfair.

I tried to explain a bit, and thankfully Kelvin said, "Ya, I know what you mean," and went on to enlighten the class, who so obviously weren't paying much attention.

Basically I need to literally feel my design. It needs to be tangible. I want to hold it, I want to feel it; it gives me satisfaction and gratification. However, Kelvin explained that he was rather the opposite, preferring to be unable to feel his work (websites, etc.).

Well, I've done my fair bit of attempting to create websites and scripting to build an interactive application, so I definitely know that those are not things that I wanna do because they are not tangible!

Feeling is very very important to me.