You know what I really feel like doing?

I really feel like giving myself a few tight slaps.

Do you know it's very irritating to keep procrastinating assignments?

Then all you can do is sit and watch your backlog of assignments snowball into a humongous pile of work...

That's when the short-cuts come in.

On Friday, during drawing class, the lecturer said that people who use short-cuts are people who utilise their brains.

Therefore, contrary to popular belief, I'm actually quite an avid user of my brain.

I take the lecturer's words to heart because he is a wise old man.

I take experienced people very seriously.

When my new classmates found out that my 'O' Level aggregate point is only a meagre single digit, they started seeing me differently.

All they could say was, "Smart lah, you! Wah lau, so smart still here.."

That's what I call discrimination.

It hurts me to discover that majority of the people there are very stereotypical.

It hurts me even more that majority of the people there are boring.

In the previous class in NYP, all the people talked about was DOTA, DOTA and DOTA only.

And you know what kills me?

Majority of the people there have the fucked up attitude towards learning.

I have wondered very hard why they're even there.

And freshies will always be freshies.

They are like kan chiong spiders.

Cannot hand up late work, cannot be late for class, cannot miss lecture, must attain 100% attendance, blah, blah..

But then when I see the work that they hand up, it's like shit.

As though they did their work with their eyes closed and brain shut down.

Now that I'm doing so much drawing assignments, I've come to really believe in the principle, "Either you hand in work with effort or you don'thand in at all."

Seriously, drawing is a feeling thing. And drawing what you see is very challenging.

I am not kidding.

Taking design is not easy. It is still hard work.

In fact, I think it's more taxing because you end up using your brain more.

I'm beginning to feel myself becoming an artist.

Right now, I'm like totally sucky at drawing from observation.

And the assignments just keep coming.

The psycho lecturers are just out to wipe us out.

Scheming bitches, they are.

I find myself enjoying drawing class very much.

Even though I kinda suck at it, I still love attending the three hours of it.

The most comforting thing to know is that despite the many people who are much better at drawing than I am, there are plenty more that are much worse at it than I am.

Sometimes, I think I'm Superman.

I've been working for such long hours that I don't have time to do my long overdue assignments.

Plus it's not like I've completed all my administrative procedures.

For so much trouble, I question if it's all worth it or not.

But I guess it should be worth all the trouble because thinking of what I can do after I acquire the skills just gives me the chills.

Good chills.

Anything that gives good chills is definitely worth everything.